Journal
of a Solitude
( a Meditation )
Forever flowing great river
At the centre
In the peace
In the silence, the solitude
Of our lives.
Here we walk free
To touch all our secret
Hopes and dreams,
Our most sacred of moments.
A soul full
Far beyond religion,
Beyond the farthest stars,
Deeper than
The greatest of great chasms,
Windfall and rainfall,
The soft dew on softest grasses,
Purest of song,
Happiest of memory
Where we fly free, unencumbered
Above bitterest cold and storm,
Shadow, loss, and death.
Lead us
Deep within the deepest
Far beyond a world
Of cruelty, mistrust,
And bloodied war.
A place of grace and beauty
Happy memory
And strongest love,
A place of peace
Far far away
From nightmare,
The cruel storms of fate
And circumstance.
Uplifted free spinning
Forested land of dreams
Green shining leaf and bough,
Storm swept cathedral,
Home of the free flying wind
Darkened shores and lifting shadow,
Waves dashed in silver and cobalt
The overwhelming,
The dark moan high up
Of leaf and branch hidden
Deep within a calling sky.
Oh land of searching wilderness
And lucent dreams
Land of hope, happy memory
Purest of places,
The wild, the free,
Conqueror of time and loss.
Let us hold again
The lost moments
Of a long lifetime
Confide secrets of the wounded,
Assuage the pain
Of too many things too long unsaid, undone.
Hold each other against the raging storm
The dark memories of the too often,
The half lived hours and days.
The forest is wild and deep
The long hard path strewn in thorn
And bramble,
But high above
The cry of soaring hawk, the eagle,
The song of a resting dove.
Far far from the slavery
Of malign history,
To roam wide and free
Overcome by the beauty
Of the still moment
In a deepening silence.
To walk along rocky stream bed
Under the cool spray
Of a full pouring waterfall
Refreshed
Baptism of solitude
And the peace, the joy
Purest meditation.
Here to fly free
In a world unencumbered
Without time, care, loss, or longing.
Bev Gorbet, August 2011 |
Reruns
My big sister
Protector, confidante
Mother, scolder
Betrayer, controller.
Submission of autonomy
The toll for acceptance.
Refuse to forfeit?
Access denied !
Marking your dying (with grief and relief),
I shudder as your son
Drapes control in gentle tones
To mask his iron stakes.
Your daughter’s worrying warnings
Ricochet within the car interior.
Here the legacy.
Patterns of control. Reruns.
Joyce Arnsby, January 2, 1997 |